haphazard

again ! but with a bit frustration, i don't know from where these aggravating thoughts around me, but now they really caught me, i m feeling so alone, so depressed, it seems to me that no one in this world likes me! i am asking to my self... m i scary???...but i don't know what the hell is going with me right now, i want something which make me feel better, but what??? hummm...let me think what i want...
i m closing my eyes...humm haaaa...*waves*.....*open* Wow! i want to go at sea side...*yellow*...but how can i go at this time *11:30 pm* ..its too much late to go there..then what i suppose to do? let me think again...but....blah..u know what i m ?? yes i m a nut!! *not coco-nut*.yes just a nut..anyways...yes i want to go at moon...Wow...great idea!...but how?? its too far! and also i dont have any car which can fly as well, if i have any of that sort, so atleast i can try for it!..sooooooooooo what else to do?? ...yes got one more idea i m going at roof,,,hum..this is what which i can manage...u know what mostly i do at roof...i love to talk with stars..and also with the trees...trust me they can talk...and after talking with them i feel good.....but sometime they make me gloomy as well...i remember one day when i laid on the bench at roof and just expecting any sort of smile or laugh from my friends star *which they do mostly*, but nothing happen like this that night...even tress are also quiet *no sound*..i asked to my self what the hell is wrong with them...then suddenly i heard a sound of weeping or crying....i shooked and ask who is this?, but no one is there to answer me..then i realize something happens wrong...moreover i heard a sooth but miniature sound of air...just she is trying to show me her presence...thats good..at least some one is with me,i said. Then i asked to the air why all are just quiet? why stars are not smiling?? why tress are not waving?? why u as well looking so gloomy??? why??
she really start weeping .... sobbing ...then said in a very touchy tone! u know what the hell those BLOOD-SUCKING-BEASTS are doing with my children in palestine???? what the hell they are making with my daughters in kashmir ??? they are butchering my sons in afghanistan!! *curse*..."u want to know the reason of all quietness " yes, this is the reason... these are those true pics which stars looking all the time...and that is how me, trees, sea and all know from stars...what is happening where!....
then she said, what u expect ? at this sort of situation u want stars to smile??? don't u think its hard on them! how the tress can wave?? don't u think something is hurting them!...
i then close my eyes....but my eyes starts drizzling....i wish to open my eyes! but i don't find my self that much capable to see stars!...i am afraid what happen if they ask something to me! *shameful* .....while keeping close my eyes i made dua to Allah subhanhu talaa for the ease of my brothers and sisters who are in difficulty.. HasbunAllah....
ya RAB u r the Protector ...plz ya Allah plz do something plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....*^^^^*
well,......hummmm haaaaaaaaaaaa.....now ...can i go at roof ??